Blank Canvas

Crayons, colour pencils, water paints, palette, sketches and paint brushes; on this desk are placed nearly everything I’ll ever need. But yet, for some unknown reason I’m surrounded by blank canvases hung onto their respective easels, staring right back at me. I could fill away all this emptiness if somehow I manage attempting to proceed. But the void that’s on the inside, is growing more and more comforting with ever growing speed. I could swim against the tide, but the inertia that’s been set for far too long made me forget what it means to keep moving. I could ignite the engine and race off to where I’m supposed to be, but lately I can’t feel my sense of direction and everything else seems much like a blur to me. I could ramble on for much further than forever, stealing inspiration from a half-torn half-withered list of similes and metaphors, I found one glazing afternoon in the last week of February. I could explain to you how baffling it truly is to be constantly in need of doing something but never being able to accomplish a thing. I could, I can and I want to really. But if I have to be honest, lately it all seems a bit pointless to me.

So for a little more while, I’ll ignore white papers and unspilled paint, mistaken directions and untainted stain, wayward dreams and lost gain. And also, I’ll try not to memorise what I have written until next time I remember something better to speak.

66 thoughts on “Blank Canvas

  1. Keep writing, keep doing the things that you like! You have written a beautiful piece with so much of feelings stuffed in it. It’s too good 👌👍.. keep writing, keep being creative and a very happy blogging to you..

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      1. I’m really sorry. I only asked because I didn’t know what to call you. You could’ve told me, I would’ve understood. Anyway hello Poonam 🙂

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      2. Same to you! You do write so well.. n I’m still struggling n editing and isn’t able to get anything to write on.. don’t know when will I get it done but seriously your post is too good 👌

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      3. Thank you again. Actually this isn’t a recent write-up. I wrote it long ago and had to edit quite a lot. And yes, writing seeks effort and time. All you really have to do is wait till you get the right idea. 🎈

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  2. I’ll reiterate again. Write. Don’t stop. Even if it makes so sense now, you’ll laugh someday at what you wrote cherishing the time that was. 🙂

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    1. You have no idea how you made a difference by saying that. It’s kinda difficult to ignore the annoying sound in the head which only goes – delete.delete. So when somebody comes up to encourage, it really makes a huge difference. So thank you so much again 🙂

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      1. Always a pleasure. I go through that as well. But I keep writing lest I feel I’m stifling my thoughts. And all the old dairy entries that I wrote years ago, naive now, gives me a good laugh. So delete the thought that tells you delete 😊

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      2. And by sharing this you gave me a great smile. Also I’m sure there must be gems hidden in your old diary entries too ✨. Probably won’t get deleted, but will always try to write regardless. ☺️

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  3. Wow! This is the best I read today. Your creativity seems to have no boundaries. There’s a flow in the write up and I could really hear the words, like someone narrating it to me. Your writing is phenomenal. I’m glad that I found your blog. Keep sharing!

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    1. Thank you so so much Pavan! I’m smiling ear to ear. Literally. I’m really glad that you liked it! It’s really easy to get into self doubt, but when somebody appreciates your work it really helps. 🙂
      And I’m glad I found your blog. You write with raw honesty.

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      1. Thank you so much! It really means a lot when somebody talks positive things about us. Basically, I write what’s on my mind and that’s somehow raw and straight. I don’t like to edit them through the process as it’d look unnatural. I write the feelings, straight out of my heart or brain or wherever things come from!
        Well, that’s enough exaggeration for now.

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      2. Hey! You aren’t exaggerating at all. The poems I’ve read of yours till now are a proof. They seem personal and like you said straight out of your heart. Will love to read more of your poetry.

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      3. I’m sure that I’ll love all your poems when I read them. Don’t worry won’t disappoint any of us. 🙂
        As for me, I’m not a prolific writer honestly. So, some write-ups turn out good while others not so much. But I’ll keep trying and learning to write. And again, thank you so much for encouraging me. 🙂

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  4. This kinda hit me hard I’m kind of at this empty lost unclear stage of my life and I can relate to it in so many ways. This emptiness will soon fade at the right moment and I’ll be able to figure things out one step at a time. Thank you again for sharing this excellent post your a great writer.

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    1. I myself wrote this when I was at the similar stage of my life. It was like I couldn’t do anything, so I was frustrated, so I just wrote out my frustrations.

      Just hang on buddy. It’ll get better. It always does. 🙂

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  5. You write really well. The best part is you write something different with your imagination and reading different things is interesting for me and I like to read and write different aspects. Keep writing. Will be a regular visitor of your blog. 👏👏👍😃🙏

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  6. Gosh… this is so heartbreaking. 💔 I felt every word, nobody ever talks about how overwhelming nothingness can be. But there’s art even in numbness, there’s so much more pain in that. You’d rather be feeling something than nothing. I just love this post. Keep writing, this is wonderful and much more than you think it is.

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    1. Thank you so much for your kind words. *_*
      I remember how awful I was feeling about emptiness, and then, this post happened. Yes, pain can indeed be potrayed beautifully. But guiltily enough, I prefer writing when it comes naturally. I’d rather enjoy the process of writing than suffering through the process.

      Thank you! Yes, I will continue to write no matter what I feel about it. 🙂

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      1. That’s very true… you don’t want to be forcing yourself to do it. I do see a lot of people say: “write, even when you don’t feel like writing.” But passion is important too, if you feel passionate about it in the moment and care enough to, then of course you will write! I pray you get plenty of inspiration to write, sis and I’m looking forward to reading whatever you write 💕

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      2. Exactly right? I don’t get why they tell us to force ourselves when we can just go with the flow.
        Oh my God! That’s such a lovely prayer. And I pray that you get out of your reader’s existential crisis. Thank you so very much for your sweet words. ❤️
        Every post that I’ve read of yours till now is so unique, and the energy you put into them is phenomenal. I’ve said this before and I say this again that I just looove your blog. It’s full of positive vibes. *_*

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      3. There’s a fine line between passion and coercion and honestly, it can really negatively affect you if you force yourself. You will just end up exhausting yourself. When we workout, we take breaks in between, when we learn in school, we take breaks in between. We just need to know when to take a break, and remember that taking a much needed rest is not quitting!

        Thank you, I didn’t know my posts were unique and I cannot tell you much it means to me to hear that! You’re so lovely, and same goes for you, you exude positive vibes, warmth, insight, maturity and so much level-headedness. ❤️

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      4. Yes, absolutely. I agree with everything you said.
        Hey! You don’t have to thank me. I just said what I feel. Thank you so much, and I didn’t know that. ❤️

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  7. I really like the way you express yourself like an artist. I don’t have that skill to write a sentence which has an indepth meaning. I would like to know how do you get such ideas to write? You sound too experienced and you look like having some sort of dream or plan that you write about. I don’t know much but definitely you have an unique style. I will try to read more of your posts to understand better how you think.

    Keep writing and visit different blogs. Comment and have a conversation with them and they will definitely If visit your blog and read your articles. I think you have less number of traffic than you actually deserve.

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    1. Hey! Thank you so so much. I never thought I have a skill in writing, so thank you for telling me you think so. I must admit, I’m not experienced at all. And I don’t really know what I’m doing, but I guess I’m trying to figure it out.

      Yes, I for instance took a long time to realise what I was doing wrong in blogging. Thank you so much caring and guiding me. That is so very sweet of you! 💛 I try to visit blogs, but I feel if I visit too many then I wouldn’t really be able to concentrate and build a conversation.. I don’t know. I just think I’m slow.

      Thank you so much again! And by the way if you don’t mind me asking, may I know your name?

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      1. Yes, you do have a writing skill. Whatever I write is too straightforward and simple. If you don’t know what you are doing, then you will certainly cherish those moments. Atleast keep visiting other blogs, if not a conversation.
        Well, I would say, What is in a name? I actually prefer to be an Anonymous person then people would have some suspense in life;).

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      2. Hahah! Okay. I will be visiting different sites, then. Thank you so much again. I didn’t know what to call you so I asked. That’s okay anonymous. 😁
        If you’re interested in writing then you should just grab pen and paper and begin to write. Because I certainly like straight forward things. 🙂

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      3. I remember being so scared even though Mumbai is pretty far from where I live. I remember the horror. Want to write about it? may be you should check out on the internet. I’m sure there must be documentaries made on the incident.

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      4. I have read many articles, saw various videos and the documentary. I could have been a victim of the tragedy that is why I want to write something. It is about to be 10 years since the attack took place.

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  8. U have an impeccable art of conveying your feelings with such a flair that I just got immersed in your write up and could really empathise what u meant over here in your post…U are truly stellar at your writing skill buddy👍🏻👍🏻

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